Fly Free

Him: “The timing is just horrible. Maybe in a few years…”

Me: “I’m just saying, I don’t think it would ever work out.”

Him: “Your probably right.”

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We’ll just never have that chance. All I’m saying is that just fucking sucks.

I woke up this morning, and everything was different.

I’m more mellow, relaxed and calm than I think I’ve ever been before. It’s not about me settling in, its about me just not caring about insignificant things.

I just don’t give a FUCK about that stuff anymore. What a great feeling.

its that itch

uncomfortable in your own skin,

turn the music up loud,

drown out your thoughts sorta itch

cant stop talking,

because your thoughts are so loud

cant stop moving,

if you do, you become comfortable, conformed

your mind is just constantly fucking racing,

you know something is waiting for you,

you just have to find it- where the hell is it?

pretty soon everyone unique, blends togther

the search for something extraordinary will never happen

your taking coffee, black, just to taste something

to live a little

and although this has been a nice vacation,

its time to go home,

i dont even know where the hell that is,

but its not here.

I always speak,

But never when it counts.

Guess today is just one of those days.

So what is it the people do around here exactly? Awesome. Nothing. As I thought…. Carry on.

I hope that one day I will look back on this post and laugh. 

I’ve realized not every horrible person gets what they deserve.

T- you have broken me, and I’ve lost some hope in people. I hope you either get what you deserve, or you change for the better. Maybe today was your “lucky” break (if you believe in luck). I know things happen for a reason, but right now my spirits are shattered. I just have to find the strength to piece it together. I just need time. 

Regardless, no more sweeping under the rug for me. 

I am really sorry.